We Do Not Actually Have Control Over Our Lives..
Who chose the job you have? Was it the real you? Or was it a scarcity wound? A need for security? A need for validation? A fear of taking chances? A fear of the Unknown?
Who is choosing to stay in your relationship? Is it the real you? Or is it the fear of retaliation? The belief that you don't deserve any better? The fear of being alone? The fear of judgement?
Who is choosing to sacrifice themselves and put themselves last? Is it the real you? Or is it the need to be liked? The fear of unworthiness? The belief that you are inferior to others?
Who is choosing to stay small? Is it the real you? Or the fear of being seen? The fear of failure? The belief of being a bad person?
We don't realize that the real us has very little control over our lives. Our lives are dictated by our subconscious which is made up of all the wounds, beliefs and understandings about ourselves and this world instilled within us from birth. Those are what are making our decisions, those are what cause our thoughts, reactions and feelings almost all of the time. This is a life lived unconsciously.
When we function from our truest self, our Soul, everything feels different. It feels vibrant, it resonates with a very deep part of ourselves. The decisions we make are clear and come from a place of power and certainty. We feel the authenticity in our actions, our responses and connections.
So, how do you know if you are making a decision from the real you, or your wounds and false beliefs about yourself?
Feel into it.
The more you become conscious and pay attention to what you are actually feeling, you can start to feel the drastic difference between the energies that are driving your behaviors. This is the art of detecting subtle energies.
We are triggered into our wounds hundreds of times a day. Begin to notice this. Drop into your heart and feel what it feels like. Do you feel the powerlessness? The weakness? The fear? the anxiety? The instability?
Get used to feeling what all these frequencies feel like. Now..what to do with the frequencies being activated that are unwanted...well, that is what healing is. You don't have to function from your wounding. But you do have to choose to do the work and heal it. It is not something that you push away, try to avoid or try to cope with. This is the process of inner alchemy, of elevation, of becoming more aligned with the true you and living your life from that space. It's not just words, or learning concepts because "being your truest self" has been an overused phrase for the past decade. It's about energetically becoming that. That is what this existence is all about if you choose it.
With Love,
Madison
